jadedlips

Wed, 18 Nov 2009 15:54:47 GMT

Wow have I really missed this place.

I miss writing here. I feel like everytime I'm here it means something bad has happened, or I feel like I needa kill someone but of course i can't do that without going to jail so I've to vent my frustrations here. See I was looking through my past entries and i saw why. because I ALWAYS jinx it. Somehow there's this evil entity that reads my blog and takes away the happy things that I blabber about in my own little web space. Sucks.

At the risk of attracting the attention of the evil entity, I've realized, in recent months that I've learned to accept my past. To look at situations for what they are because in the outside world no one really cares about all the "what ifs" you've creatively devised in your head. No one. Especially when you look back at it a year later and find out that the "what ifs" were all excuses you made up to cushion your fall.

Just a little thought.
Btw I'm super excited for December! Are you?

Sun, 18 Oct 2009 19:00:31 GMT

"You're scared because you're in love with me like you've never been in love with any of your husbands. Because unlike a Bart Bass someone like me can actually break your heart. And I know because right now you're breaking mine."

xxx

Fri, 16 Oct 2009 17:03:36 GMT

Guess who's on twitter?
twitter.com/rachleism

To ma boy

Tue, 29 Sep 2009 18:35:07 GMT

I'm a train wreck in the morning
I'm a bitch in the afternoon
Every now and then without warning
I can be really mean towards you

I'm a puzzle yes indeed
Ever complex in every way
And all the pieces aren't even in the box
And yet you see the picture clear as day

I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me, flaws and all
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love

I neglect you when I'm working
When I need attention I tend to nag
I'm a host of imperfection
And you see past all that

I'm a peasant by some standards
But in your eyes I'm a queen
You see potential in all my flaws
And that's exactly what I need

Fri, 18 Sep 2009 20:10:12 GMT

Been busy with school, work,friends, and my one and only.
School is exactly what I had hoped for, mellow and drama-free.
Life is pretty good.

till next time.

Fri, 28 Aug 2009 05:58:34 GMT

www.randomixture.livejournal.com

Hey guys, please support! :)

Tue, 18 Aug 2009 16:49:06 GMT

Sometimes I get this feeling of betrayal, when my friends don't love themselves enough to know when to stop taking shit.

Wed, 15 Jul 2009 17:27:24 GMT

Say I'm in a straitjacket, lying on my stomach on a skateboard, going down the steepest slope in the world.

Should I pray hard that the slope never ends and enjoy the ride?
Or brace myself for that one heck of a fall and hopefully be able to salvage what's left of me?

11th

Fri, 10 Jul 2009 15:24:12 GMT

Okay, I'm starting to feel quite nervous for school. Like what if I've no friends? Shitz. I kinda don't really care, but I'm doing marketing again, which equals PROJECTSSS which means I need nice people as groupmates. Urghhhh. Hopefully I won't start off as the most hated girl in class, AGAIN.
Okay and seriously, I don't feel like going for orientation at all. Cos orientation means I've to play ice breakers and I really don't like ice breakers cos it's like not a very NATURAL way to make friends. Haha.
And orientation means CHEERING. I hate cheering. I dont see a point in cheering for a school or a group that I don't feel THAT passionate about and that I would actually shout and chant praises about it all day. Only people that should cheer like that are cheerleaders.

I'm an orientation-hater, in all sense of the word.

BUT,
I've to choose my own timetable slots, it's kinda part of the agenda for orientation. So, UGH. Fuck that. Decide later.

Oh anyway, the inner fashionista in me is slowly revealing itself after watching way too many episodes of project runway. hahahaha. I was so inspired that I made/altered several pieces of clothing and like seriously in all fairness they look okay/not bad/wearable. Haha. I'm gonna head down to spotlight next week and get more inspiration and maybe make A DRESS. Tehehehehe.

Sat, 20 Jun 2009 19:49:48 GMT

It feels like I'm in this huge transition in life whereby everything is changing so quickly and I'm forced to grab on to everything else that has been constant and undeviating in my life. These 3 years in school taught me so much and toughened the hell outta me. I might not have tons of friends I could share the next few phases of my life with but I'm proud to say I have enough. School is school after all and having enrolled in a course that's based so much on creativity, you deal with really shady, pretentious and conniving people. It was so fake that it got tiring to even watch those people and their pathetic antics. So fake that thinking about it all right now could make me throw up.
So this tertiary education thing, I took all I could from it and thank goodness I'm done.

Good fuckin riddance.

Wed, 17 Jun 2009 17:41:12 GMT

Could you move in slow motion?
Everything goes by so fast
Just slow down a little
Save the best part for last

You speak in riddles
Your intentions turn me on
I'm yours forever
Will you love me when I'm gone?

what I do best

Thu, 04 Jun 2009 19:02:30 GMT

Mind over matter
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Comfort tv

Thu, 14 May 2009 18:53:23 GMT

"Life is so very fragile. We are all vulnerable, and we will all, at some point in our lives... fall. We will all fall.
We must carry this in our hearts... that what we have is special.
That it can be taken from us, and when it is taken from us, we will be tested.
We will be tested to our very souls.
We will now all be tested. It is these times, it is this pain, that allows us to look inside ourselves."

Fri, 08 May 2009 07:58:00 GMT

School starts in 2 months and almost every single poly graduate i know is going to SIM. So that means I get to start school with a fresh clean slate with zero/minimal alma mater baggage. Then again I'm like 56 times Champion holder for worst first impressions so that kinda means nothing to rejoice about after all. ha-ha. k random bye.

Sun, 26 Apr 2009 14:16:25 GMT

Hiatus
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FNL

Mon, 06 Apr 2009 20:24:48 GMT

Yay FNL's finally back online after 3 months. And I just read NBC's gonna renew the series for another 2 FREAKIN SEASONS SWWEEEEEET.
Omg I love that show, makes me cry half the time. It's way better than stupid hollywood dumb blonde drama series, Beverly Hills 90210, GOSSIP GIRL, or whatever they show on tv these days. There's shitty acting and stupid cliche plots that goes round and round high school drama. Seriously, like we get it already?

Sat, 04 Apr 2009 22:03:14 GMT

You're a falling star, You're the get away car.
You're the line in the sand when I go too far.
You're the swimming pool, on an August day.
And you're the perfect thing to say.

And you play it coy, but it's kinda cute.
Ah, When you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
Baby don't pretend, that you don't know it's true.
Cause you can see it when I look at you.

Tue, 24 Mar 2009 19:58:08 GMT

I'm falling sick from not doing anything at all. How pathetic is that?
I need something new to look forward to everyday. It used to be touch trainings and games and all that, but I don't have that anymore :(
I was thinking amateur boxing, or muay thai, or just kick boxing. Everybody loves a girl that kicks ass, right? hahaha
Or, I don't know something else.
I mean working out in the gym is a whole different thing from a sport itself y'know?

Anyway, I miss my boys. Haven't seen them all in SO LONG :(
This is the only reason why I miss school. We don't get to hang out that much anymore.
It's not like how we used to bump into each other in school, get a table and talk cock till our next class.
Thank god we're meeting up soon.

Sat, 07 Mar 2009 17:21:48 GMT

You know, I think this cumulative GPA system is really screwed up. It is meant for people with IMPECCABLE consistency. No, really.
People always claim that there's always a second chance and it depends on how you make of it. Most of the time, that is simply just not true at all.
In everything you do, you will always only get ONE good opportunity. Yea, you get second chances and all that, but it will never be as good an opportunity as that ONE GOOD ONE. And because the average people like us have difficulties identifying these "ONE GOOD ONES", the exceptional AND consistent people jump up at this unfortunate shortcoming and exploit it.
Well, and because they are consistent in the first place, they continue to become exceptional people in the society, CONSISTENTLY.

This happens every single day it's like an act of human nature.

So us the average people, will always reside below the surface of the water, separated from the exceptional because we missed our One Good Ones.

Sun, 01 Mar 2009 14:46:50 GMT

I miss Mitchell :/
I'm reading this really dark and weird book called "The Suicide Club" and it really is awesome.
But it's giving me really dark thoughts it's kinda disturbing.
I have no idea why I love books like that, that's so messed up and fucks with my mind. Think I'm weird like that.
Probably cos books like that portray emotions differently, very blunt and incredibly deep. Like a really bad cut.
A very grotesque-looking cut that you shun from but find yourself looking at it again because deep down you just want to.
See, an unnecessarily morbid post.

Anyway, ma bitch's outta town (hahaha) and thus it led to an unhealthy dosage of L4D this week. I swear when i got out of the cab the other night, for one second I really thought a HUNTER was about to pounce on me. But I snapped out of it the next second thank god.

Wed, 11 Feb 2009 22:23:18 GMT

PARTIED.
LIKE.
ROCKSTARZX.

Fri, 06 Feb 2009 20:35:19 GMT

Girl, it's pathetic how hard you try to fit in.

Wed, 04 Feb 2009 18:00:21 GMT

"Lose your head just for your heart, just for your heart"

Fri, 30 Jan 2009 19:09:04 GMT

Sometimes when you try too hard and work so hard towards your goal, you forget why you do it in the first place. I guess towards the end it became about goals and targets and proving myself that I forgot why I play it in the first place. Why I love this sport so much. Why I used to look forward to trainings and get excited for trainings the night before and then have dreams about playing.

Oh God I miss that I really do.

Besides the horror of school,

Sun, 25 Jan 2009 18:06:34 GMT

2009, so far so good.